Yes I still use that wallpaper. Maybe when I change it I can finally move on. Or maybe when I've moved on I would finally change it.

Grave of the Fireflies

The feelings were different for the two different perspectives.

The anime showed the children’s perspective of the war. It told of how war is cruel in that the people, the women and children left behind must suffer. It spoke of pride and of how people can turn selfish in times of scarcity. To me, it is just a children show, meant to evoke empathy.

The live action recounted the same story in the aunt’s perspective instead. War again is cruel, again it changes people. Beyond this, it showed the bitterness of surviving. How the aunt hardened her heart for her family’s survival. It is something natural, yet when seen from the children’s perspective difficult to understand and forgive.

When the aunt saw the sweet tin and knew that they were gone, I could imagine that she would have a bit of relief that she did not have to face them from the guilt of abandoning them, and a bit of relief because she did not have to struggle to raise them up too. Putting myself in her shoes I would too.

War gives little comfort. The boy struggled to look after his sister and maintain his dignity. The aunt lives on with the bitterness of her losses and guilt.

Should you be interested, I recommend watching the anime first and then the live action.

Today I met Cleaven and we happened to talk about Mr Chang, chemistry lecturer. I realised that he is quite similar to me... the way he says he can be very fierce when angry but everyone laughs instead. I used to say "I am angry" but give a boyish smile such that people think I'm not being serious.

"I'm angry."
"Hahaha you're smiling." *Smiles*
"Oh." *smiles wider*

I miss the old me. How smiling can solve my anger so easily. How people laughing off my seriousness (hee..) helps me brush it off myself. Now I am angry less often, but I smile less too.

hana kimi

With the school filled with (only) pretty guys, there is bound to develop gay relationships. Not advisable at all, if there were really such a thing...

Series is ok so far, more absurd than other manga adaptations such as nodame cantabile and GTO, though tricks are getting stale. People appearing randomly for example. Hope the acting and chemistry improves to sustain my interest.

We trashed things out throughout the night. We spoke honestly about each other. Before the sun rose and the new day started, I feel we understood each other better and became much closer.